Little miss decided that instead of sleeping, she didn't want the light off. She wanted it on all night so she could stare at my bedroom wall ALL night. It was too cute to stop. She just stared.
I am running on basically NOTHING. No sleep, no food. Bathing is only optional at the moment, because she wants mommy at ALL times and hates the bathwater.
The things you take for granted, I swear.
But, no matter the things you hear about being a new mother, NOTHING could ever prepare you. Being a SINGLE new mother is even harder. She is always with me, and I can't seem to do even the smallest things before she starts fussing again.
I try hard, and I know that the people around me think I am just being lazy and not WANTING to do anything.. But you think I want to live in a house with dishes piling up and without eating dinner? NO WAY JOSE!
I tried washing dishes last night and got through the silverware before she wanted to fuss again. I know she is just a tiny little baby, so I stop what I am doing to make her feel more comfortable. I mean, hell, she was inside me for 9 months. She is dependent on me in every way. I will NOT let her just sit and cry so I can do other things that OTHERS can do.
I don't know, I guess this is just a vent. I know there are a ton of single mothers out there who do a ton, but this is just me. I don't want to feel like I MUST do everything to keep other happy. My first and ONLY concerns are my daughter and me...
Okay, I guess I'm done now... Much love to ya. Gonna go lay down in the recliner with my baby girl and watch some Supernatural. This zombie mama is TIRED!